I have lead legions of men to their death

I’ve been there when they took their last breath

I fought with Atilla the Hun

I rode into battle on a horse in every war that we won

I fought against the crusades, against religion and greed

I fought against the church and the poison I read

I fought in the 100 years war and the war of the Roses

I never questioned the question this poses

I fought against the Spanish conquest of the Aztec Empire

I burned the bodies on pyres ever higher and higher

I fought in the Napoleonic Wars with Bonaparte by my side

As the blood washed up with every tide

I fought in the Cuban War of Independence

And even now it doesn’t make sense

I fought in World War 1, where nearly 40 million died

I took shelter in my trench and I cried and I cried

I stormed the beaches of Normandy to stop the Nazi advance

And wondered does humanity really have a chance

Am I a Walter Mitty character just dreaming in my bed?

Or am I just reimagining the history of mankind’s cruelty instead?

When I look back

Especially at the last ten years since I moved home

At all the time wasted and lost forever

How much more living I could have done

And how much happier I would have been

The problems I thought I had

Have all disappeared

They didn’t even exist

They were all in my head

83 days sober

It’s poison to me now

We are all Time Machines

If you know what I mean

We can look and reflect on the past

Be it good or bad or even rat-arsed

We live in the present making decisions everyday

Which will affect our future in every way

We control this future and make our own destiny

We are the captains of our souls and ships with no chance of mutiny

We can travel through time in our own head

No need to make excuses just careful planning instead

Its wonderful to be alive, you will be a long time dead

You and I can make the future and not worry about things unforeseen

You and I are Time Machines

Of all the mental illnesses, bipolar disorder is the most mysterious

The list of artists that have had it is long and glorious

Many of these artists you may know

Edward Munch, Edgar Allen Poe, Hemingway, Picasso and Van Gogh

People who shift between extreme productivity, creativity and insight

That goes far beyond what would be normally possible day and night

To severe bouts of depression and deep despair

It’s a chronic incurable illness, there is no repair

Even Albert Einstein, the genius of geniuses had all the symptoms

Didn’t stop his theories being awesome

But the cost of being bipolar is high

Make no mistake, you can die

Which puts me in a fix

The average bipolar patient dies between 55 and 66

So here I am with the facts and statistics

I’m just going to have to risk it

There is no cure

Just carry on

What else can I do?

I shall finish with a quote

Something a famous doctor once wrote

“Bipolar is often referred to as the dark side of creativity, it disproportionately affects people otherwise known as uncommonly gifted or even geniuses”

I must address without a guess and not suppress just totally express without duress that I am in someway gifted due to this illness

I wouldn’t change anything I must profess

Waking up on a Saturday morning

No hangover or 5 second getting sick warning

No regrets of things I did or said

Just thoughts of the books that I have read

Not wondering did a I fight with my girlfriend

Or wondering did i fight with a friend

Feeling fit lifting 30 kilos on the bar

Putting 40 kilos on the bar is not that far

Reason has returned and I’m thinking clearly ahead

Thought’s of going back travelling not worrying about the price of 2 bottles of wine instead

Flight tickets and visas and fresh food and bread

Other peoples drinking doesn’t bother me

I’m over the addiction, now totally free

I’m not looking for praise

I’m just out of that drunken haze

The occasional spliff I still blaze

This isn’t a phase

My sobriety has me amazed

Are you ready?

Ready for the truth?

Follow this rhyme for the informed route

A towering inferno

Let me share with you what I know

Freedom begins deep inside

This I believe, I’m just along for the ride

I’ve stuck my head up now, no need to hide

The reason life is so good is cause

I make the right decisions faster than you

My strategies and theories all proven true

I’m just floating about

I talk with confidence, I never have to shout

I’m self educated always ready to up-skill

My words and technique polished and ready to thrill

Life is a breeze, too easy sometimes

And when its easy, I speak in rhymes

On a plateau nice and steady

My poetry is deep and I’m always ready

Bulletproof, legacy in the post

So lets raise a toast

To being reincarnated as a prophet enjoying this rebirth

I’m just another God that has fallen to Earth.

I created the Universe

A good start for a verse

The planets and stars

Earth, the Sun, and even Mars

You only exist through interactions with me

The only person on the planet who is truly free

I choose the company I keep

And the many assholes I interact with doesn’t cost me sleep

Always walking forward with a fuck you smile

An indestructible force of nature mile after mile

In control of my emotions with a definite plan

I am a God in apprehension, not merely a man

The Sun rises and sets with you

It’s all about me and you

A different world now with you in my life

No need to worry about trouble and strife

You are bringing out the best in me

When I’m with you I now feel totally free

I dream of a cloudless sky

So we can travel, you and I

We will travel far away

And live happily day to day

We’ll see fresh blue skies

And explore islands far and wide

We’ll see beaches with sands of pure white

And watch the sunset and sit under the moonlight

This person said that or this

This town stinks of piss

People wanting to know your private affairs

But who the fuck really cares?

Some people speak from both sides of their mouths

Making up stuff to spread about

But I don’t care

You can suck it, fuck it, or even do the toilet duck it.